Fixation

Have you ever tried really hard not to think about something? It really doesn't work. It's like, if someone asks you to name five things that aren't Jackie Chan, all you're gonna think about is Jackie Chan.

So how do you forget something you don't want to think about? I've tried to distract myself, but I don't honestly have enough going on in my life right now to occupy that empty space. I've tried to train myself to think a certain way, but I've never been good with mental discipline. If I was, I'd probably be way more motivated and have much better grades. And I've definitely tried drinking the thoughts away, but that weirdly only makes me more fixated on them.

I'm starting to think there really isn't anything I can do other than wait it out and hope that I get bored of it like I do with everything else. It's a little strange that I'm hoping for my two biggest flaws to cancel each other out. Oh well. Either way, this is getting to be pretty exhausting.