I constantly have this heavy feeling, like I have things I need to say, but I don't know how to get them out. I've gotten very good at distracting myself from things I don't want to think about, and I'm afraid it's starting to inhibit my ability to deal with my emotions.
It's not all bad news, though. I've recently learned to accept some things about myself that I didn't quite understand before.
I don't mean to be vague. I hate when people do that. It seems like a cry for attention, but that's never been what I want. I just want people to understand, but I don't know how to explain.
People expect things from me. It's usually not a lot, but I still can't come through for them. I don't know the right way to keep myself going, but I think being alone helps. Maybe I'm wrong, though.
I'm sorry I haven't gotten back to anyone today. I want to, I just can't. The idea of interacting with people is giving me anxiety. Just know that if you're reading this, I'm very grateful, and I love you all.
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