I've had a half-finished post explaining what I meant saved in my drafts for at least a month now, but I just can't get through it, and I think it's mostly because I don't feel how I felt when I started it. At Stony Brook, I was pretty miserable. Not because of anything in particular (in fact, I'm still not completely sure why), but I felt trapped and really useless. Everything seemed pointless and I couldn't focus on anything, so I wound up having my worst semester ever, GPA-wise (and some of you are aware how bad that is).
But now that I'm home, things are mostly a lot better. I still wouldn't go so far as to call myself a generally happy person, but I don't always feel so shitty anymore, and I'm making progress towards breaking out of the perpetual apathy that I tend to allow to run my life.
On the other hand, I did initially promise that this blog wouldn't be as personal and melodramatic as it has been lately. I'll get back into more positive things pretty soon, I just wanted to get this out there.
P.S. the half-finished explanation post began with this clip. In hindsight, I think it sums up what happened when I tried to write the post pretty well.
