y u do dis

People ask me all the time, "Jacob, why do you write your blog?"

That's a lie. Nobody asks me why I write this blog. But the fact that nobody asks kind of helps to answer the question.

I am very bad at socializing with people. I have fairly low self-esteem, which makes me self-conscious in social situations, and I wind up saying very little. This is why 90% of my blog posts are late at night or early in the morning; I'm so guarded that I can only let myself feel comfortable and vulnerable and honest at these weird times of day when nobody is around.

I write this blog primarily for me. Somewhere down the line, I may be curious enough to want to read these poorly-written snapshots into the mind of my early-20s-self. I'm not sure why. It's not exactly groundbreaking stuff. But, I do think it can be therapeutic to write these sorts of things down, especially if you are as much of a social moron as I am. There aren't many people I talk to about personal stuff, so I use the blog to talk to myself.

But I also write it to share with people. Even though I tend to be an agreeable person, because of my social ineptitude, most people don't know me well. Posting this publicly gives people a little more insight into what I'm about. This purpose is definitely secondary, though; you don't need to follow my blog and talk to me about every post to be my friend. This isn't a reading assignment.

And I guess the third reason I write this blog (or at least this post in particular) is to procrastinate, because I totally have a lab report I'm supposed to be doing right now.